Don't seem to be maintaining an erection as much when sex with someone else is an option...
...kinda sorta maybe·ish.
I've noted before that a rather bizarre quirk of my sexual addiction is that I don't need sex to actually ease it off. Mastrubation takes the edge off a little bit but actually being with someone feeds it. It's the intimacy that seems to do it, I've lost all the pangs I have for sex just having slept with someone I care for.
I'm the kinda guy that when I say I "slept with someone" I'm not talking about sex. Just very plainspoken by nature. I mean "sex" I say sex...or fuck or boink or a bunch of other things but "sleep" is actual sleeping.
Moving right along...
My sex drive is as high as it ever was but the actual addiction seems to have gone on vacation. I would attribute this to the fact that one of the most regular recent women I've had in my bed has spent the night every Thursday for the past month and some change. Such lovely smooth skin, such a natural cuddler, such wonderful texture (inside joke) and she's just so giving of herself...I can't explain it but it seems to be doing the trick. We want to have sex but other than some oral and manual we really haven't.
Bit o' some technical difficulties involved there but that's not important to this post.
Haven't really explained the voraciousness of my sex drive before, it's a wonder I'm not crawling with all sorts of creepy crawlies inside but I'm not. When I was 22 years of age I'd only been with 3 women...
...by age 29 I'd been with +100 more.
It's possible my needs being met, the no·sex·naked·time rubs a lot of sex addicts the wrong way as they say if that's what makes my sex addiction go away then I must not be a sex addict, is why could explain an interesting rash of erection issues...or it might be something else. My ability to maintain has been interrupted before when I've been in something of a funk. I'm not sad or depressed or anything but I have been feeling decidedly not right the alst few weeks. Not entirely sure why and whatever it is may blow over soon enough on its own but it is troubling.
Seems more than a little odd that I'm not feeling the pain my addiction usually brings me anymore and that's what is bothering me. Okay, sure...the not being able to maintain an erection thang is kinda bugging me too but I don't know what the average for holding on is. Normally I get one and if nothing is going down at the time it sticks around to watch TV with me for awhile...
...now it goes away in relatively short order.
Suppose it could just be me getting old.
I dunno...but there's one surefire test.
Of the 3 women I'm currently seeing, one of them is built like a pornstar. Well, not just built, used to be one. Regardless of what the truth of all this is, her effect on my system is like getting hit with a lightning bolt.
Just a matter of finding a loophole in her exceptionally busy schedule.
5:49 PM 1/25/09 · Was toying around with adstaining from any sexual activity for maybe about a week. I lasted all of about 2 hours, I've had myself some happies; 3 times. Although it would seem that having written this got whatever it may've been out of my system as I was back on my usual clock, so to speak.